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2007/11/9 Do you have a good mood?The Blue Day Book Everybody has blue days. These are miserable days when you feel lousy, grumpy, lonely, and utterly exhausted. Days when you feel small and insignificant, when everything seems just out of reach. You can't rise to the occasion. Just getting started seems impossible. On blue days you can become paranoid that everyone is out to get you. This is not always such a bad thing. You feel frustrated and anxious, which can induce a nail-biting frenzy that can escalate into a triple-chocolate-mud-cake-eating frenzy in a blink of an eye! On blue days you feel like you're floating in an ocean of sadness. You're about to burst into tears at any moment and you don't even know why. Ultimately, you feel like you're wandering through life without purpose. You're not sure how much longer you can hang on, and you feel like shouting, "Will someone please shout me!" It doesn't take much to bring on a blue day. You might just wake up not feeling or looking your best, find some new wrinkles, put on a little weight, or get a huge pimple on your nose. You could forget your date's name or have an embarrassing photograph published. You might get dumped, divorced, or fired, make a fool of yourself in public, be afflicted with a demeaning nickname, or just have a plain old bad-hair day. Maybe work is a pain in the butt. You're under major pressure to fill someone else's shoes, your boss is picking on you, and everyone in the office is driving you crazy. You might have a splitting headache, or a slipped dish, bad breath, a toothache, chronic gas, dry lips, or a nasty ingrown toenail. Whatever the reason, you're convinced that someone up there doesn't like you. Oh what to do, what to dooo Well, if you're like most people, you'll hide behind a flimsy belief that everything will sort itself out. Then you'll spend the rest of your life looking over your shoulder, waiting for everything to go wrong all over again. All the while becoming crusty and cynical or a pathetic, sniveling victim. Until you get so depressed that you lie down and beg the earth to swallow you up or, even worse, become addicted to Billy Joel songs. This is crazy, because you're only young once and you're never old twice.The Blue Day Book Everybody has blue days. These are miserable days when you feel lousy, grumpy, lonely, and utterly exhausted. Days when you feel small and insignificant, when everything seems just out of reach. You can't rise to the occasion. Just getting started seems impossible. On blue days you can become paranoid that everyone is out to get you. This is not always such a bad thing. You feel frustrated and anxious, which can induce a nail-biting frenzy that can escalate into a triple-chocolate-mud-cake-eating frenzy in a blink of an eye! On blue days you feel like you're floating in an ocean of sadness. You're about to burst into tears at any moment and you don't even know why. Ultimately, you feel like you're wandering through life without purpose. You're not sure how much longer you can hang on, and you feel like shouting, "Will someone please shout me!" It doesn't take much to bring on a blue day. You might just wake up not feeling or looking your best, find some new wrinkles, put on a little weight, or get a huge pimple on your nose. You could forget your date's name or have an embarrassing photograph published. You might get dumped, divorced, or fired, make a fool of yourself in public, be afflicted with a demeaning nickname, or just have a plain old bad-hair day. Maybe work is a pain in the butt. You're under major pressure to fill someone else's shoes, your boss is picking on you, and everyone in the office is driving you crazy. You might have a splitting headache, or a slipped dish, bad breath, a toothache, chronic gas, dry lips, or a nasty ingrown toenail. Whatever the reason, you're convinced that someone up there doesn't like you. Oh what to do, what to dooo Well, if you're like most people, you'll hide behind a flimsy belief that everything will sort itself out. Then you'll spend the rest of your life looking over your shoulder, waiting for everything to go wrong all over again. All the while becoming crusty and cynical or a pathetic, sniveling victim. Until you get so depressed that you lie down and beg the earth to swallow you up or, even worse, become addicted to Billy Joel songs. This is crazy, because you're only young once and you're never old twice. 还是一样最近几天天气都很冷。 值得庆幸的是,导游结束了。关于这一切都结束了。 忽然间觉得一切都离自己那么远,那么不可知。 总是在想未来的样子,可却总也看不清脚下的路。
不缅怀过去,专注现在。
现实让我必须看清自己,看清楚未来。 长大了,真的好烦。 小的时候,从来没有想过自己想要什么,长大了,才渐渐明白,有时候,不是你想要什么就能实现的。 结果很美好,可过程很纠结。 呵呵。 现在回想自己的中学时代,真的挺傻的。 不过,好在还充实。
现在的生活,是真正需要我用努力填满的时候了。 好累。
Do not, for one repulse, give up the purpose that you resolved to effect. 2007/10/13 阴天又是一个阴雨天。 宿舍冷的要死。 早上起床后,下楼就闻到了清新的空气味道,混合着青草的气息。去吃早饭,然后教学楼自习。一切都按部就班,一切依旧那样平静。 冲了杯咖啡,不为别的。怕困。 有时候怀疑,自己这样做是否值得。但一转念,就觉得一切都理所当然起来。 其实内心一直有一句话在,是我敬重的一位老师说的。
“成功有两条路。一是用钱去砸,没钱的话,就用努力去砸。”
用努力去砸。 相信会有我的道路吧。
刚刚写了研究生的作文,从写到修改,花了将近3个小时。好累。 法语还没有背。今儿还没看导游呢。感觉时间不够用啊。 不过,至少充实。 特别可怕的事情是,没有事做,特别空虚。
爷爷,你在天堂还好吗?又想您了。 2007/9/25 中秋 今天中秋,和同学度过了一个愉快的夜晚。原来,快乐真的很简单。昨天是24号,爷爷的五期。甚是想念。
今天给东北的奶奶打了电话,其实很想说爷爷,可怎么能在奶奶面前提起呢。一时间真的有点无话可说。我们心中从来没有忘记过爷爷,只是一时间都无法接受这个事实。
一生中,总会有几次令人刻骨铭心的记忆。时间无法模糊。我们那些念念不忘的记忆,在我的心里,竟然越来越清晰。
爷爷,中秋节快乐。
没有了您,中秋怎么过。 2007/9/21 纪念。 最近很忙,一直在准备导游考试,这将是一个未知的结果,可同学说一定要全力以赴,不要给自己留后路,可我真的是有些累了。有时候不甘心就这样下去,可目标太远大也根本不现实。上课,下课,自习室,烦了这样的 生活。
这里很少有人来,可这正是我所期望的,这样我才会有安全感。呵呵,好怪的人。
破釜沉舟的时候到了。
上课的时候,吃饭的间歇,只要是我一个人的时候,总会想起爷爷。这种思念让我越来越悲伤,也越来越责备自己。我想,我做了见极其后回的事,这是让我终生难忘的。
爷爷,你还好吗?我想您了。
2007/9/12 纪念。一个月的时间,我就知道了什么是真正的生离死别。
当我在医院看见正在睡觉的爷爷,还天真的以为过几天就可一接爷爷回家,然后吃爷爷为我砸的核桃,喝爷爷为我买的饮料。。。
这一切都不可能了。当我跪在他的遗像前,我才知道我竟然如此的想念爷爷。从而想起我原来的年幼无知。明白了后悔是多么的痛苦。心情一直被阴霾所笼罩,走不出想念这两个字。
印象中,从来没看见过爸哭,他从在我们面前流泪。在我和妈妈得到爷爷病危的消息后,感到医院的时候,爸哭了,放声大哭。
爷爷,您还没有看吃孙女挣钱给您买的好吃的,还没有看到我找到多么好的工作,还没有看到我结婚的那天。。。。。怎么就这么舍得离我而去呢,爷爷。。。。。
爷爷在我上高中的时候做了我们全家人都不知道的一件事,他为我买了五年的保险。就在病床上的时候还在担心我的学费。
爷爷,下辈子,还做您孙女。
2007/7/14 Truely perspective Utimately, the only way to experience the richness of life is to live in an attitude of gratitude:to appreciate what you have and what you can give.The best way to ensure your happiness is to assist others in experiencing their own. 书评 最近在看的书是《心灵牧场》。
不知道自己曾为了这本书里面的故事掉了多少眼泪,总之很感人。就跟当初看心灵鸡汤一样,赚了我不少的眼泪。原来发现,世间最能感动我的,还是最真的那份爱。就像傅雷家书里老爸对傅聪说的每一句话,每一封信,都使我如醍醐灌顶般清醒。读的许多书。其实都教会了我应该怎么去爱,怎么生活。感谢每一本给予我生活经验和人生哲理的书。
You can not do something to the lengh of your life, but you can do something to the board of life. 有点不好意思。 那篇我写同学的文章被他看见了。其实写之前是没有打算让某人看到的,结果这样却弄的很尴尬。尴尬源于我的心里话被别人看见了,所以特别扭。
感慨的只是大学,怎么这么轻易的就改变了一个人。看看周围,没变的又有几个呢?自己太固执了。
班里的女生,从最初来时纯纯的样子,现在无一不变的花枝招展,唉。
其实有什么资格感慨别人,自己不也是变的无所侍从,没有方向了。不过,我那天说的话有一点是真的,人一但没有了目标,就会变的不知所措。自从四月专四考完之后,一下子就松懈了,没了目标和方向。最近一直在想,我的未来究竟在哪,我想要的生活究竟存在么。想着想着就觉得自己特白痴,特别的傻。
未来不是两个字,对于我,在哪呢。想的不多,又怎么会思考呢。 2007/7/13 车啊车 学车其实是件挺矫情的事,对于我来说。
前天路考过了,说实话当时紧张的很,我是心理素质很差的那种人。虽说考试千万次从来不拒,可这学车的考试和我们中国几十年来应试教育的考试不太一样啊。紧张是有的,但原因也是很明显的 。
其实吧,算了,说了吧,如今也没什么可丢人的了。
桩考我考了两次。当时我们那一组十多个人,就我没考过,当时一慌,一下就撞杆了····别的不说,我自己就觉得特窝火,怎么就撞上了呢,平时练的不知道有多熟,唉。记得当天哭的特夸张。
所以考路我心理十分之有阴影,总是在想,要是不过怎么办啊,丢人是小,考了就省事了,再考了外路就能拿本了,要是不过,就要拖到下学期了,想的都郁闷。就在这样的阴影下,我考了个100分,哈哈。考完立刻打电话给教练,他也不用为他的少拿工资担心了。呵呵。
瞬时间,世间又多了一个马路杀手。吼吼。
2007/7/2 青春啊 无力。 今儿上Q碰见原来一高中老同学,记得原来他还挺上进的,虽说有点叛逆吧,但还是挺有个性,有思想的那种。高考那年,他决定复读,第二年的时候,考了个一类本,不错,我恭喜他,说一年的努力没有白费,总算不枉这一年的时间。还信誓旦旦的说,将来曼彻斯特会有他的身影。
一年前的事,现在想起来还跟做梦似的。
现在上了一年的大学了,我问他近况怎么样,那位仁兄先是说他们班的女生很让他受伤,然后就说他上学期倒数第一。我听了都傻了。不至于这么不给咱北京人争脸吧,倒数啊。后来得知,他不上课,不学习,天天打游戏上网。大学真的就能把一个人给改变了呢。唉。
是不是人一没有了努力的目标后,就堕落了。
物是人非。 2007/7/1 youth is so great tonight I came across my brother in qq,he in in the secong year of high school, inspired by my experience,I encourged him to make great effort to do what he like and what he enjoys to.and don't follow my road.I really appreciate his yough energy, full of dreams in his heart, come on,brother! Remember I always behind you. 2007/6/30 young for you 喜欢这首young for you.
When I first listen to this song, my body seems to be full of energy and relax as never be.
What is your feeling? my friend? hope it can also bring you a little bit happiness. long time no see. Long time no see.right?
I nearly forget the feeling of surfing on the net.In the past, I always believe that internet is time-consuming.For now,I really keep this point.As if there is something magic in the imagination world.right, I have to admit it.
Now, I have a crush of writing something that from the bottom of my heart.With the times flies, some certain people changed and also something.Where is my confidence to learn English?Recently I have found myselves become easier to cry,no why,no reason.Only by this way as if I can free myself.Life is too tired.nothing is easy to get the path of success.I am learing a driving now,so in the foreseeable future, I can got an driving license, too.A little bit pleasure.
2007/4/28 觉得很好,于是转了。I could stay awake just 2 hear U breathing.我可以不眠到天光只为听你的呼吸 Watch U smile while U're sleeping.只为看你熟睡的笑脸 While U're far away & dreaming. 只为远远的看着你在作着美梦 I could spend my life in this sweet surrender.我可以用我的一生换你的温柔 I could stay last in this moment forever. 我可以永远陪伴着你 Every moment spent with U is a moment I treasure.每时每刻陪伴在你身边,这是我所愿 I don't wanna close my eyes.我不想闭上眼睛 I don't wanna fall asleep.我不想睡着 'Cause I'd miss U,baby.因为宝贝我想念你 And I don't wanna miss a thing.我不想错过任何事情 'Cause even when I dream of U.因为当我梦着你时 The sweetest dream will never do.好梦却从未成真 I'd still miss U,baby.宝贝我依然思念着你 And I don't wanna miss a thing.我不想错过任何事情 Lying close 2 U feeling Ur heart beating.我离你是如此的近,都能感觉到你的心跳 And I'm wondering what U're dreaming.我想知道你的梦想是什么 Wondering if it's me U're seeking.我是否是你寻找的人 Then I kiss Ur eyes & thank God we're together.那么我会吻向你的眼并感谢上帝让我们在一起 And I just wanna stay with U.我只想与你在一起 In this moment forever,forever & ever.此时此刻永远延续下去 I don't wanna close my eyes.我不想闭上眼睛 I don't wanna fall asleep.我不想睡着 'Cause I'd miss U,baby.因为宝贝我想念你 And I don't wanna miss a thing.我不想错过任何事情 'Cause even when I dream of U.因为当我梦着你时 The sweetest dream will never do.好梦却从未成真 I'd still miss U,baby.宝贝我依然思念着你 And I don't wanna miss a thing.我不想错过任何事情 I don't wanna miss one smile.我不想错过你温馨的微笑 I don't wanna miss one kiss.我不想错过你甜美的吻 Well,I just wanna be with U.我只想与你在一起 Right here with U,just like this.就这样与你一直在一起 I just wanna hold U close.只想紧紧拥着你 Feel Ur heart so close 2 mine.感觉你的心贴我如此的近 And just stay here in this moment.就这样永远在一起 For all the rest of time.无时无刻永远在一起 I don't wanna close my eyes.我不想闭上眼睛 I don't wanna fall asleep.我不想睡着 'Cause I'd miss U,baby.因为宝贝我想念你 And I don't wanna miss a thing.我不想错过任何事情 'Cause even when I dream of U.因为当我梦着你时 The sweetest dream will never do.好梦却从未成真 I'd still miss U,baby.宝贝我依然思念着你 And I don't wanna miss a thing.我不想错过任何事情 I don't wanna close my eyes.我不想闭上眼睛 I don't wanna fall asleep.我不想睡着 'Cause I'd miss U,baby.因为宝贝我想念你 And I don't wanna miss a thing.我不想错过任何事情 'Cause even when I dream of U.因为当我梦着你时 The sweetest dream will never do.好梦却从未成真 I'd still miss U,baby.宝贝我依然思念着你 And I don't wanna miss a thing.我不想错过任何事情 Don't wanna close my eyes.不想闭上眼睛 Don't wanna fall asleep,yeah不想睡着 Don't wanna miss a thing.不想错过任何事情 呵。 一个人来上网。曾经熟悉的一切怎么忽然变得如此的陌生了呢。
曾经的我,其实是个耐得住寂寞的孩子。现在也是,不同的是,我已经再也不是那个感性爱哭的孩子了。如今的我,虽然依旧是学生,可是意义完全变了。也许是吧,大学的生活的却改变了我,可是毫无新鲜感可言。 |
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