人生若只如初见

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The Blue Day Book
　　Everybody has blue days.
　　These are miserable days when you feel lousy, grumpy, lonely, and utterly exhausted.
　　Days when you feel small and insignificant,
　　when everything seems just out of reach.
　　You can't rise to the occasion.
　　Just getting started seems impossible.
　　On blue days you can become paranoid that everyone is out to get you.
This is not always such a bad thing.
　　You feel frustrated and anxious, which can induce a nail-biting frenzy that can escalate into a triple-chocolate-mud-cake-eating frenzy in a blink of an eye!
　　On blue days you feel like you're floating in an ocean of sadness.
　　You're about to burst into tears at any moment and you don't even know why.
　　Ultimately, you feel like you're wandering through life without purpose.
　　You're not sure how much longer you can hang on,
　　and you feel like shouting, "Will someone please shout me!"
　　It doesn't take much to bring on a blue day.
　　You might just wake up not feeling or looking your best,
　　find some new wrinkles, put on a little weight, or get a huge pimple on your nose.
　　You could forget your date's name or have an embarrassing photograph published.
　　You might get dumped, divorced, or fired, make a fool of yourself in public, be afflicted with a demeaning nickname,
　　or just have a plain old bad-hair day.
　　Maybe work is a pain in the butt.
    You're under major pressure to fill someone else's shoes,
　　your boss is picking on you,
　　and everyone in the office is driving you crazy.
　　You might have a splitting headache,
　　or a slipped dish, bad breath, a toothache, chronic gas, dry lips,
　　or a nasty ingrown toenail.
　　Whatever the reason, you're convinced that someone up there doesn't like you.
　　Oh what to do, what to dooo 
　　Well, if you're like most people,
　　you'll hide behind a flimsy belief that everything will sort itself out.
　　Then you'll spend the rest of your life looking over your shoulder,
　　waiting for everything to go wrong all over again.
　　All the while becoming crusty and cynical or a pathetic, sniveling victim.
　　Until you get so depressed that you lie down and beg the earth to swallow you up or, even worse, become addicted to Billy Joel songs.
　　This is crazy,
   because you're only young once and you're never old twice.The Blue Day Book
　　Everybody has blue days.
　　These are miserable days when you feel lousy, grumpy, lonely, and utterly exhausted.
　　Days when you feel small and insignificant,
　　when everything seems just out of reach.
　　You can't rise to the occasion.
　　Just getting started seems impossible.
　　On blue days you can become paranoid that everyone is out to get you.
This is not always such a bad thing.
　　You feel frustrated and anxious, which can induce a nail-biting frenzy that can escalate into a triple-chocolate-mud-cake-eating frenzy in a blink of an eye!
　　On blue days you feel like you're floating in an ocean of sadness.
　　You're about to burst into tears at any moment and you don't even know why.
　　Ultimately, you feel like you're wandering through life without purpose.
　　You're not sure how much longer you can hang on,
　　and you feel like shouting, "Will someone please shout me!"
　　It doesn't take much to bring on a blue day.
　　You might just wake up not feeling or looking your best,
　　find some new wrinkles, put on a little weight, or get a huge pimple on your nose.
　　You could forget your date's name or have an embarrassing photograph published.
　　You might get dumped, divorced, or fired, make a fool of yourself in public, be afflicted with a demeaning nickname,
　　or just have a plain old bad-hair day.
　　Maybe work is a pain in the butt.
    You're under major pressure to fill someone else's shoes,
　　your boss is picking on you,
　　and everyone in the office is driving you crazy.
　　You might have a splitting headache,
　　or a slipped dish, bad breath, a toothache, chronic gas, dry lips,
　　or a nasty ingrown toenail.
　　Whatever the reason, you're convinced that someone up there doesn't like you.
　　Oh what to do, what to dooo 
　　Well, if you're like most people,
　　you'll hide behind a flimsy belief that everything will sort itself out.
　　Then you'll spend the rest of your life looking over your shoulder,
　　waiting for everything to go wrong all over again.
　　All the while becoming crusty and cynical or a pathetic, sniveling victim.
　　Until you get so depressed that you lie down and beg the earth to swallow you up or, even worse, become addicted to Billy Joel songs.
　　This is crazy,
   because you're only young once and you're never old twice.   

最近几天天气都很冷。

值得庆幸的是，导游结束了。关于这一切都结束了。

忽然间觉得一切都离自己那么远，那么不可知。

总是在想未来的样子，可却总也看不清脚下的路。

 

不缅怀过去，专注现在。

 

现实让我必须看清自己，看清楚未来。

长大了，真的好烦。

小的时候，从来没有想过自己想要什么，长大了，才渐渐明白，有时候，不是你想要什么就能实现的。

结果很美好，可过程很纠结。

呵呵。

现在回想自己的中学时代，真的挺傻的。

不过，好在还充实。

 

现在的生活，是真正需要我用努力填满的时候了。

好累。

 

Do not, for one repulse, give up the purpose that you resolved to effect.

    

又是一个阴雨天。

宿舍冷的要死。

早上起床后，下楼就闻到了清新的空气味道，混合着青草的气息。去吃早饭，然后教学楼自习。一切都按部就班，一切依旧那样平静。

冲了杯咖啡，不为别的。怕困。

有时候怀疑，自己这样做是否值得。但一转念，就觉得一切都理所当然起来。

其实内心一直有一句话在，是我敬重的一位老师说的。

 

“成功有两条路。一是用钱去砸，没钱的话，就用努力去砸。”

 

用努力去砸。

相信会有我的道路吧。

 

刚刚写了研究生的作文，从写到修改，花了将近3个小时。好累。

法语还没有背。今儿还没看导游呢。感觉时间不够用啊。

不过，至少充实。

特别可怕的事情是，没有事做，特别空虚。

 

爷爷，你在天堂还好吗？又想您了。

     今天中秋,和同学度过了一个愉快的夜晚。原来，快乐真的很简单。昨天是24号，爷爷的五期。甚是想念。

     今天给东北的奶奶打了电话，其实很想说爷爷，可怎么能在奶奶面前提起呢。一时间真的有点无话可说。我们心中从来没有忘记过爷爷，只是一时间都无法接受这个事实。

     一生中，总会有几次令人刻骨铭心的记忆。时间无法模糊。我们那些念念不忘的记忆，在我的心里，竟然越来越清晰。

     爷爷，中秋节快乐。

     没有了您，中秋怎么过。  

   最近很忙，一直在准备导游考试，这将是一个未知的结果，可同学说一定要全力以赴，不要给自己留后路，可我真的是有些累了。有时候不甘心就这样下去，可目标太远大也根本不现实。上课，下课，自习室，烦了这样的　生活。

　　这里很少有人来，可这正是我所期望的，这样我才会有安全感。呵呵，好怪的人。

　　破釜沉舟的时候到了。

　　上课的时候，吃饭的间歇，只要是我一个人的时候，总会想起爷爷。这种思念让我越来越悲伤，也越来越责备自己。我想，我做了见极其后回的事，这是让我终生难忘的。

　　爷爷，你还好吗？我想您了。

               

         最近在看的书是《心灵牧场》。